My confession ~ Well I was seeing a guy just recently and everything started out perfect, and I mean perfect and I was falling for him pretty hard and then after 2 or 3 months I started noticing really odd behavior from him and I couldn't shake this bad gut feeling that something wasn't right and then after a friend and I did some snooping around we found out that he was already in a relationship with another chick and it was very serious. After confronting him about it and contacting the other chick, he still denied it and made it out that it was all in my head (even tho I had proof) and also continued to make out that it was me who was doing the wrong in all of this. I was in the wrong for questioning him, for doubting him and so on...

But thing is, its been some weeks since this has all blown up in my face and I eventually cut all contact with him, but I just cant get this guy outa my head. I mean I know hes a douche bag and all that, but I cant stop thinking about him and missing him. And I have to restrain myself from wanting to contact him. And I don't even know why I wanna contact him again, He did everything I hate in a person..but yet its there day after day..the wanting. Maybe I just need some kind of explanation as to why he did this to me...idk :/