I'm reading the book Nine Ball by Jeff Allen. The guy is quite a player and describes his screwed up past, his decision to become a player, and how he went from an alcoholic value leach (successful at being a player nonetheless) to having a rather holistic lifestyle in which he gives off value and positive emotions instead (while still being a very successful player ). The emotional crap he deals with and the transformations he goes through are really inspiring, I find myself regularly taking quotes from the book for my personal development.