I mostly go round in circles believing heavily one thing that is spiritual and then, suddenly one day, maybe a few years later… changing my mind about it all.
When I was young I lived in the same house till I was 4 and a half, I loved my young childhood there. It’s the sweetest memories I have about life. - - We then moved to a completely dilapidated wreck of a house and then I started school soon after around age 5.
The young years in my first home were so lovely. They were the late 70s.
My parents loved the Beatles, the beach boys. And for some reason I remember hearing Ian Drury and the Block heads ‘hit me with your rythm stick’ a lot . Only I thought he was saying ribbon stick
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Also during those first 4 and a half years I had what years later I worked out were innocent spiritual experiences. Beautiful ones. Feelings I can’t describe and visions which actually came true years later. I guess it was moving house and starting school that put a stop to that because that’s when they stopped for many years.
Most sensible people will put it to an adventurous imagination but I still think of them because they felt so pure, so unadulterated and better than anything I’ve experienced since…which has only led to confusion thus far if visions etc are part of it… but… il hopefully work it out one day…. If I don’t try too hard. Or if I don’t think about it one bit.
It’s because of the experiences I had during sleep paralysis for the four years between 1996 and 2000 (aged 20 to 24), every time I nodded off, that have probably confused the hell out of me about what God is or what it is in a useful sense that is worth believing in from a spiritual perspective. But I will not go into these experiences. Not here.
I do know that Love can change a lot of things. Those fluffy feelings you get when you are experiencing it. Whether for a partner or for a friend or just being high on life, or perhaps when writing a tune or when listening to music. These feelings have the power to change your life for the better. People should stick to them. It’s not a trivial thing. Love is the most spiritual feeling there is I think.
One thing you can guarantee. The sun will always shine … and that hope, is free of charge, Just like Love.